I am lazy to write this month. I have something to think about e.g. my future, direction and my work. It makes me feel tired. Tired to the existing situation, tired to make the work i did before although i am interested in making it. Tired to continue everything. After I know what to do in the coming year, I feel that I have a base or a foundation. On top of it, I can do everything that I want. It is difficult to plan but I need to back to my original place to start with. I need to go to a place with harmony and with people of the same sprit. To get back energy, the picture tube need to be recharged after exposure to the world for some time. Or it should be turned off for some time.